The previous few nights I know my mania is fading. I can really feel it in the whole lot I do, an entire lack of performance making an attempt to settle in and I discover myself screaming no, no, no. I can’t return to the melancholy once more, and I positive as hell can’t crash into it both. I really feel like I am standing atop an enormous cliff and searching down all I see is darkness and despair and I understand regardless of how a lot I maintain on, an enormous gust of wind will come alongside and ship me over. And then I will coming crashing down, discovering myself on the very backside and having to dig my approach again out once more.
That’s what the crash is like.
Bipolar syndrome is daunting sufficient. Simply figuring out you have got the biking impact of moods. But when you perceive all of it, and I imply actually perceive it, it may be a lot worse. I assume a part of the anticipation of the crash makes it even more durable to cope with. This time although, I’m preventing again.
Here’s a few of my present strategies to organize for the crash of mania into melancholy and hopefully a way of creating the transition smoother.
Stick exhausting to my routine. When melancholy settles in, it may be arduous to do something however as soon as I start doing it, it does not really feel so dangerous, so I am merely forcing myself to undergo the start motions with the hopes I can survive until the top.
Not permit myself to wallow in mattress. Already I really feel like all I need to do is sleep, so I am eradicating myself from the bed room altogether. The solely time I will enter there’s when it’s truly time to go to mattress. No working within the room nothing, merely sleep.
Continue to train. Like every little thing else it is more durable to start out however I discover so long as I can get myself began I can hold doing it.
Setting very small objectives. Little objectives are holding me accountable and pushing me ahead. And talking of objectives, I am making them recognized to others so I really feel extra like I have to truly do them, than I would if it was a aim solely I knew about.
Starting on my melancholy drugs now. I know this might probably knock me proper again into mania however I really feel I am already far sufficient into the crash that it is time to begin now and never when I am already the puddle on the ground.
And that is only a begin. Simply being ready is making a distinction, and permitting me to perform extra usually than earlier crashes.
By Sylvia Rolfe